People are saying that it’s lovely that Claire and I were devoted to one another. We were, absolutely and totally. But that was starting to leave a hole for me thinking that way, devotion to me means having someone there to receive it… and she’s not!
- I was devoted to listening to her and now I can’t
- I was devoted to being there for here and now I can’t be
- I was devoted to providing for her and now I can’t
I have a choice, I can choose to keep thinking that way and life won’t get better, or I can choose to redefine what devotion means to me.
Someone sent me this yesterday (Thank you Castle Way Dental Practice), it made me cry but this is what devotion now means to me and I’m going to live life this way:
You can shed tears that she is gone or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her and only that she’s gone or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back or you can do what she’d want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
OK, I gotta go back to work because that’s set me off again…