I made it through today… our 22nd wedding anniversary. It’s been an odd day, I’ve not really spoken to many people but those that I did didn’t mention that it was our anniversary. I guess it’s tough for people, no-one really knows what to say, and I respect that.
I was having an SMS conversation with one friend who did indeed say happy anniversary in the message – and you know what I was OK with it, she knows about Claire and I’m actually very touched that she felt she could say that to me, it is my anniversary today and it always will be.
Of course it was a sad day, yes I’ve welled up quite a few times but it’s not been a dark day… just sad, but acceptable sad… almost positive sad… is that possible?
I really am so thankful for the years we spent together, it’s true that some people search a life time for what we had, and I am truly thankful that I found such amazing love and managed to share those 22 years with Claire.
Someone sent me this earlier on today – it sums up how I feel so well.
The life that I have
Is all that I have
And the life that I have
The love that I have
Of the life that I have
Is yours and yours and yours.
A sleep I shall have
A rest I shall have
Yet death will be but a pause.
For the peace of my years
In the long green grass
Will be yours and yours and yours.